We get to a point in our life when normally, people your age start to do (or feel the pressure to do) certain things because they think it’s the natural path in life. This entails settling down, getting married, have kids, buy a house. For the last three to four years, I’ve been witnessing that and feeling a little scared and overwhelmed. I was always scared to move in with someone you’re in a relationship with, I was terrified at the thought of getting married and I cannot explain my fear towards having kids. I always felt against natural paths and thought, for example, that getting married wasn’t in mine. It makes sense to commit that way to someone you love and feel you want to spend your life with, make it official, gather round family and friends. But, in someway, living with M. already made me feel like we were married. We were sharing a life, a home, expenses and our time. Times have change and more and more people spend years together without even talking about the getting married issue. I don’t feel any difference from when we were just boyfriend and girlfriend. I still refer to him as my boyfriend – only official matters call for the husband word – and we are still very much committed as we were before. The big difference comes when checking boxes, instead of Miss I check the Mrs.