Things you learn

When people ask me if something has changed, after getting married, I instantly say no. It’s true because, in reality, we are still the same couple we were after that day, we have the same routines, the same qualities and faults, we were already living together and got used to one and other’s habits. But soon you realize that your answer isn’t necessarily true. You step out of your comfort zone, stand in front of your family and friends and make your love and relationship official, creating a sort of tension now and then. It’s a wonderful feeling to be that committed to someone else, but it can also be daunting and it’s normal to feel scared. I don’t use the word husband that often in my life, not because I don’t like it but because it sounds too grown up and, at times I honestly still refer to M as my boyfriend, which he is! Our fights are certainly grown up and you can feel overwhelmed with how much you can hate someone you love. Also how much your conversations change – suddenly everything is out in the open, getting an apartment, sharing bank accounts, kids. And that, scares the bejesus out of me. I know I want to have kids and I know I want to have them with M but not now – although the universe does not let you stick to your plans. Lastly, I like to believe that we are counting memories and never the days we are together because those are the ones we get to share with each other, our families and friends.

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