Back to Life, Back to Reality

back to reality

Hello New Year! As I always say, I cannot believe we are in 2-0-1-9. What a ride the last few weeks have been. I was back home in Portugal, then flew to the Canary islands for New Years, back to Portugal and then New York. We actually arrived Saturday evening and took Sunday to rest before going back to reality. And of course, I took some time to think about the past year and what I want for this new one.

I love being introspective, making resolutions and sticking out goals. Because even if they don’t come true, at least I have the intentions keeping me straight. You hear all about how they can set you up for failure, or make you feel disappointed. But for me, it’s like a check-list. Something to cross off! Past the being more healthy, setting a spirit, wanting to do more for others, I want 2019 to be a “back to” year.

Somewhere along the past few years, I’ve lost track of who I am. I feel like I’m always on someone’s shadow, following along, getting influenced and not actually speaking my truth. It’s easy to get lost in the sea of people, things and intentions others are making. To move through a crisp line of otherness. I want to go back to my roots, to my truth, to myself. And especially, back to reality.

I do not want to be lost in others, but found in myself.

This will be my mantra for this year. Because I’m tired of being benched and feeling like I don’t deserve good things. I’m tired of living in a “waiting for” bubble and not actually realizing my dreams, hopes and wishes are worth being chased. Maybe it’s because I’m 30, maybe it’s because I’m just more aware that I’m deserving of better things and people. Or maybe it’s just the books I’m reading, movies I’m watching and cliché quotes I’m posting.

I’d love to know if you have any resolutions, mantras, ideas or goals you want to achieve in 2019. And don’t forget not to get caught up in the non-sense, clutter and noise. You do you. And that’s the best advice anyone can give you.